Advanced Awareness: What’s Your Motive?
Tick Tock, Tick Tock
Time is your best friend and our worst enemy. Time is the great equalizer of people. Each of our days has exactly twenty-four hours in them. No one can buy, steal, or borrow more time than that— until death comes calling.
In our darkest moments, death can appear more attractive than life. In our brightest moments, we can become intoxicated with a wish for everlasting life. In the in-between moments, however, our true character is measured. Which shade of moments do you find yourself in the most frequently? Dark, bright, or neutral? Take a few minutes to ponder this question, then continue to read.
One day in a flash of insight you will realize that time has been stolen from you. Stolen by the hurtful, painful things that happened to you. At the moment in which you see and accept this insight, you will feel incredibly sad. You will cry in a way that you have never cried before. You will sob from your soul. Your tears will pierce your body and feel as if they will never end. In this instance, you will finally feel the total pain that you have worked so hard to bury.
But before you embrace your pain, you must intellectually see something else: “I was betrayed by people I trusted. I was deeply hurt. I learned to blame myself for what happened. In my heart of hearts, I am angry about the guilt, shame, and hurt that was forced upon me, In the depths of my soul, safely hidden from me, I know that I want revenge.”
Hurt yourself. Hurt them. Hurt yourself. Hurt them. Hurt yourself. Hurt them. Hurt yourself. Hurt them. As you chant your mantra of revenge, you drive yourself to the borderline of self-destruction.
“Why am I hurting myself?” Because you seek revenge. It won’t let you go, and you won’t let it go.
What better way is there to punish those who hurt you than by hurting yourself? What better way is there to hide a motive for revenge than to become the target of the harm? Maybe if you hurt yourself enough, they will say it was all true. Maybe they will try to stop you. Maybe they will hold you and love you. Maybe, they will never say they are sorry.
Maybe. But maybe it is time for you to look into the mirror of your soul and acknowledge your need for revenge before it claims you as its sole victim.
Tick tock, tick tock, tick…
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